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I am a Hopeful Bride of Christ and I long for the day I can dedicate all of my life to Him. I have been actively discerning religious life for about 4 years now and I have been accepted to enter the Sisters of Mary, Mother of the Church. I hope to begin formation soon and beg your prayers that my student loans do not keep me from entering. With your help and prayers I hope that my entrance to the SMMC will soon be reality. Rest assured that you are all in my thoughts and prayers - most especially those young men and women discerning their vocations, whether to the religious life, priesthood or married life. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I continue this journey toward Him.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Novices

On Sunday, August 22nd 4 postulants became novices with the Sisters of Mary Mother of the Church.  What a joyful day! I am so excited for these sisters.  I continue to keep them in my prayers and hope to join them one day soon.  Here is a link to some pictures and info on the new novices.  I am hoping that a video becomes available soon.  Enjoy :)
From left to right: Sr. Maria Faustina, Sr Paschalina Maria, Mother Kathryn Joseph, Sr. Margarite Marie, Sr. John Paul (On either side of them are Bishop Skylstad (far left) and Father Connall)

On another note, I am getting closer and closer to completing my application to the SMMC and hope to have all the different pieces in soon.  Please keep me in your prayers.

Monday, August 2, 2010

The struggle to be Holy

As baptized Christians, we are called to be Holy, to live more and more like Christ everyday - yet it pains me to see how I act from minute to minute.  Take today for example (and it is not over yet), I overslept and therefore did not get to go to adoration or mass before going in to work (I will have to get that done later in the day)  I always prefer to receive Christ at the beginning of my day.

Back to the point of this entry; by 9:30 my day was going horribly - I found myself getting angry quickly with my co-workers (though I don't show it and I don't direct it toward them) my interactions with them is affected, I am impatient and unwilling to be understanding.  So what if I have explained something three times already? Should I be so greedy and so focused on myself that I cannot be inconvenienced?  The ironic thing is while meditating on the 2nd joyful mystery this morning, I ask the blessed mother for her help in being more tolerant and charitable so not to mind so much being inconvenienced for the sake of others.  I believe the events of today is the Lord's way of giving me the opportunity to express the love for others that I so wish to express, yet I am never able to rise to the occasion. 

Why is it that we all desire to be holy but we lack the fortitude to remain loving to our brothers and sisters, I find that what I lack is love; more so than patience, or understanding.  I believe a deep love for all will have a positive impact on my interaction with others - regardless of how many times I've explained something or how frustrating I believe they are being..  I am unable (more like unwilling) to love when it is not on my terms.  I always use the excuse of being too tired, too overwhelmed or too busy to be kind or to be loving. 

But I got to thinking, Jesus was human right?  He was all of those things, too tired, too busy, and I'm sure even too hungry at times.  Yet he always showed love, he always had an open and understanding heart.  It saddens me that I want to espouse myself to someone I am so far from.  Granted we don't want to be exactly like our spouses but come on, it would be nice to be able to share some of the same positive qualities. 

The point of this long and somehow pointless rant is that I have a lot of work to do.  I knew I had work to do but the amount is much more than I thought. 

Keep me in your prayers, that I may be open to the guidance of the Holy Spirit to love my neighbors as I love Christ.

Jesus, come into my heart!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

A little bit on my journey

Still trying to get the hang of this; I am new at this and am not sure what to do.  I'll just speak a bit about myself, I am a hopeful SSMC and pray that God leads me to that community.  I am currently in the process of requesting entrance and pray that it is God's will that I become a sister.  This has been a desire that He has placed in my heart for some time now.  However, in the past 2 years or so, I feel like He has confirmed my vocation.  If however he calls me elsewhere, I am open to that as well.  

I have had some wonderful experiences in the last couple of years that has led me to be so much more open to the Lord's will.  I ask that you please pray with me as I continue this journey to follow him.
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Case of insomnia

It is almost 3 and I am not sleepy.  Part of it is because of the storm earlier but most importantly I think it is because I am anxious.  I am working on my application packet.  I hope all goes well.

Keep me in your prayers!