This past week was one of the hardest weeks for me in many aspects. I was the most stressed I had ever been at work (I usually handle the day-to-day bustle with a calm demeanor but somehow this week was different) I found myself getting irritated at the drop of a hat. Sadly this irritation came from the fact that I had set these standards for the folks that I deal with and somehow made myself the one to determine how others should behave. It would not have been so difficult if it stopped at getting irritated, what makes it worse is the fact that in my frustration and anger I get short with the people I am dealing with and I throw all desires to be charitable out of the window.
Every morning I say a prayer to the sacred heart asking for the Lord's help in growing in the virtue of charity and humility. I know very well that when we ask the Lord to help us grow in the virtues (patience, humility, charity etc.) we are given the opportunity. Patience is not given to us at the drop of a button but rather we are presented with opportunities that seem to try our patience and it is up to us to turn to the Lord and to follow His examples of charity, patience and sympathy.
Knowing this, I wasted countless opportunities this past week, opportunities to love; opportunities to be patient and humble. I found myself getting super irritated at a co-worker who I believed was emailing me too much asking for follow-up on certain tasks and issues we were working on. By the 5th email I was ready to blow and blow up I did. I went for a walk around the campus and my friend and walking buddy got to hear a never-ending venting session. Afterward it was as if blindfolds were taken off of my eyes, I realized that all these emails I found irritating were opportunities to be patient, to turn to Christ and ask Him to help me respond to this person with love. Right away I knew that I had to go to confession and thankfully I was able to receive the sacrament of reconciliation before evening mass. I have made the strong resolve to not give in to my anger and to rely on Christ in my moments of anger.
As I do every day and every week I have made the resolve to slow down and take the time to recognize and appreciate opportunities to grow in the virtues rater than flying off the handle when I find myself getting too irritated. I have started by reciting the face prayer by Jim Pinto Jr. and it is a wondeful reminder to me of my responsibility as a lover of Christ. I have included it below, I hope you find it as much of an inspiration to your day as I have found it to be to mine.
In Christ, our Love